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So, it has been a good maybe 2-3 years since the last time I was actually active on this site. I had over 20,000 messages in replies, journals and watches to sort through, but now i'm thinking of posting updated artwork up. Nothing new per say, just redraws of old pieces of work. 
I'm still massively into my art but Deviant Art isn't my cup of tea anymore, I joined 9 years ago when I was 12 years old. If you aren't good at maths, that makes me 21 nowadays. (It's okay, i'm still terrible at maths myself).

A lot has changed in 9 years. When I joined I was struggling terribly with myself and my sexuality, I was suffering through the worst years of my life, was suicidal, self harmed and didn't want to live.

Nowadays I'm comfortable within myself and who I am, I still have my off days where I pick up a blade but that's rarer than a blue moon so to speak.
Life is just so different now. I'm still a student but I chose to keep studying. I'm actually studying media at University.

Growing up I was never close to my mum, we never got along and was always clashing. The house was like a prison due to this and the hatred between myself and my older brother.
Now my mum is my best friend and we've not had a real argument in years. My brother hasn't lived at home since I was 16 and I can't remember the last time I saw him. We text on rare occasions and tend to tolerate one another rather than fight now. I don't miss him at all though. But it is nice to know we've both mellowed out to the point where we can actually spend time around each other and get along to some degree.

I'm still not very good around people or crowds which I don't know if I ever will be but whatever, I'm happy being an introvert.

Overall i'm the happiest i've ever been. I no longer live at home and I miss it terribly but it's all part of the growing process isn't it?
I still have my days where I feel like i'm alone and that there's no hope but I no longer feel suicidal, I don't want to die, I'd like for things to be easier or easier to understand at least but life is always going to have a learning curve. There's not much that can change that fact.

Anyway, I just want to say, if you're struggling or having a bad time, you have to take it upon yourself to fight your way out of the mess. Don't back own or shy away because you can't run from your troubles. They always know where you're heading and they know all the shortcuts. Get help and communicate with people. It's terrifying and its hard but what waits on the other end of the darkness is a world that makes all the pain worth it.
Never give up, you all deserve to be happy.
  • Listening to: Twenty One Pilots - Ride
  • Playing: Destiny (Xbox 360)
  • Eating: My pencil
  • Drinking: Monster Energy
So, it has been a good maybe 2-3 years since the last time I was actually active on this site. I had over 20,000 messages in replies, journals and watches to sort through, but now i'm thinking of posting updated artwork up. Nothing new per say, just redraws of old pieces of work. 
I'm still massively into my art but Deviant Art isn't my cup of tea anymore, I joined 9 years ago when I was 12 years old. If you aren't good at maths, that makes me 21 nowadays. (It's okay, i'm still terrible at maths myself).

A lot has changed in 9 years. When I joined I was struggling terribly with myself and my sexuality, I was suffering through the worst years of my life, was suicidal, self harmed and didn't want to live.

Nowadays I'm comfortable within myself and who I am, I still have my off days where I pick up a blade but that's rarer than a blue moon so to speak.
Life is just so different now. I'm still a student but I chose to keep studying. I'm actually studying media at University.

Growing up I was never close to my mum, we never got along and was always clashing. The house was like a prison due to this and the hatred between myself and my older brother.
Now my mum is my best friend and we've not had a real argument in years. My brother hasn't lived at home since I was 16 and I can't remember the last time I saw him. We text on rare occasions and tend to tolerate one another rather than fight now. I don't miss him at all though. But it is nice to know we've both mellowed out to the point where we can actually spend time around each other and get along to some degree.

I'm still not very good around people or crowds which I don't know if I ever will be but whatever, I'm happy being an introvert.

Overall i'm the happiest i've ever been. I no longer live at home and I miss it terribly but it's all part of the growing process isn't it?
I still have my days where I feel like i'm alone and that there's no hope but I no longer feel suicidal, I don't want to die, I'd like for things to be easier or easier to understand at least but life is always going to have a learning curve. There's not much that can change that fact.

Anyway, I just want to say, if you're struggling or having a bad time, you have to take it upon yourself to fight your way out of the mess. Don't back own or shy away because you can't run from your troubles. They always know where you're heading and they know all the shortcuts. Get help and communicate with people. It's terrifying and its hard but what waits on the other end of the darkness is a world that makes all the pain worth it.
Never give up, you all deserve to be happy.
  • Listening to: Twenty One Pilots - Ride
  • Playing: Destiny (Xbox 360)
  • Eating: My pencil
  • Drinking: Monster Energy

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No amount of words could explain what I feel inside.. And sometimes when I cry, i dont even know why.
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A-M-A-P Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Hello there my fellow deviant! :D I want to personally invite you to join my wonderful group (FantasyLegends) and to submit your fine art with us! We accept all forms of art by the way! Nod  And, may I ask that you make a donation to me because I would love to make this group a Super-Group in time! If so, click this link abalamanderson.deviantart.com/… and I will also feature you as well! La la la la 

I have also taken the liberty in sending you a cute little Llama. I also Fav'd some of your works and I became a Watcher! Oh my, I just loaded you up with some awesomeness!! :happybounce: 
Thank you so very much if you do decide to donate and/or join my wonderful group in advance!
I hope you have a very Merry Christmas and an awesome New Year too! Hug 
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5x5shadow5x5 Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2014  Student General Artist
Hello, that's a pretty cool groupyou got there, i requested to join =]
Merry Christmas! =]
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Mangagirl18 Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2014
Hullo! How are you?! Hope you're well. 

My kitty's growing fast, but is still smallish which is nice.

I'm psycked for christmas. You?

Send me a note please? Are you still in school, if so, what level, grade, and subjects? Any jobs? Any new friends? Any pets? etc.

Oh and note me your address too, I want to send you a gift. :)
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5x5shadow5x5 Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2014  Student General Artist
I'm doing okay ^^ You?

Awww, any pictures?

Not really, christmas ha never been a good time in my house..

Okay sure, i'll send my next rely as a note if i remember too =3
I'm in my last year of college studying Media, no jobs, new friends.. Well not really but i'm frieds with most people in my college if that counts? =3 Still got my 2 dogs and my snake who's still missing =[

Okay dokes ^^
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Mangagirl18 Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2015
Pretty good.

Been trying to upload some, but my phone is being a bitch. :shakefist:

Aww that's soo sad, did you at least gget some good gifts? *she asks, eight months later* ^^;

Glad College is treating you well. ^^

Aww, how old are they? Did you ever find that snake?
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5x5shadow5x5 Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2015  Student General Artist
I literally havent been online so long I have no idea what you're talking about anymore but lets see what my mind comes up with in responce!

Woo!

Upload some of what?

Gifts? Gifts for what? *Too lazy to find out*

Ahhh, college is long gone now, i've moved onto much bigger things =]

Who? I'm assuming you mean Waffles when talking about finding a snake? In which case, yeah, on mothers day, she came back to me... She died the next day though but at least I got to spend a little bit of time before she passed, I buried her in my garden and got a new one the next day whose an aggressive little fucker called Medusa, I still love her though =3
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ThePurpleDelight Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2014  Student General Artist
Thanks for watch c:
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5x5shadow5x5 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2014  Student General Artist
You're welcome ^^
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ThePurpleDelight Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2014  Student General Artist
c:
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starIinq Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014
if you're interested in the adoptable, please send the points. there's someone else who wants it as well, and if i don't receive a reply from you i'm going to have to sell it to them
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